First of all, a BIG wonderful thank you to everyone who participated at the Zumba event and Donor Drive last night at Arcade Church!  Many thanks to Zumba instructor, Tiffany, who did an excellent job of keeping everyone moving to some great music and for also donating the proceeds of this event to our family!  (Interested in more Zumba?  Here is her workout schedule on FB: http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=106775102686585)  Thank you to sweet, sweet Allie for getting this event going!  (You are precious to our family!)  Thank you to Liz from BloodSource for being willing to come out so late in the evening to register people as stem cell donors.   Special thanks to Steve Lee, now 11 months post-transplant for AML and doing great, for continuing to come out to donor drives and be an inspiration to our family!  Finally, thank you to those of you who helped set up and clean up after the event, too!  We appreciate all of you so very much!

Well, it has been said that the journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.  That means we only have 998.5 miles left to go! Step one: getting Katie into remission — check.  Step two: getting a transplant date set – half-check.  Here’s the scoop:

A tentative date for the stem cell transplant has been set for the end of September, with admission to the hospital one week earlier.  The date is tentative for several reasons: Katie has a spot on her lung which could possibly be scar tissue from the recent fungal infection (which would be great) or an active pocket of fungal infection (which would not be great at all).  The plan is to wait and do another CT scan of the problem lung in two weeks, with the hopes (and prayers, too, please!) that the spot is gone or has reduced in size.  If it has not disappeared or has grown larger…well, I choose not to go there now!  The doctor said she would not do a transplant if Katie had a possible infection brewing in her lungs. Period. In addition, the most recent CT also showed some spots on her liver; her local oncologists think the radiologists are being hyper-sensitive in their reporting due to her medical history, and they really don’t see spots where the radiologists indicate there some; but, just to be sure, Katie will have an MRI of her liver next week.  No word yet on the GFR test of her kidney function, but I’m not anticipating anything wrong there.  The cardiologist at Stanford felt that his team could manage the temporary stress caused to Katie’s already weakened heart, which was great news.  However, the transplant doctor expressed her opinion that the cardiologist is a very optimistic individual, and she thinks we should count on Katie most certainly having heart complications during transplant.  There was mention of intubation, infections for which there is no medicine, and ICU stays.  I brought up my concern about the length of time this process is taking and what happens if there is a relapse of the leukemia before she can get to transplant. The urgency was acknowledged but, without addressing these other issues, there would be no going forward.  So, the transplant doctors are formulating their treatment approach, while we are back in Sacramento trying to address their concerns.

Have you ever taken pictures while on vacation, then looked at them when back at home and thought, “There’s something missing.”?  You know - the smells, the sounds, the feel of the air and sun on your skin, the sense of wonder?  Well, the paragraph above is something akin to a picture (though not of a vacation!).  There is a lot not said; things that can not be conveyed in mere words.  You have to be there to know what it was really like.  (And some of you reading this post know exactly what I’m talking about.) I hope the rest of you will never need to know.  As the doctor spilled out all the probable complications, I kept saying to myself, “No. You don’t know my Katie.  You don’t know my God. You don’t know the stuff that my Katie is made of.  You don’t know what she has pulled through before: abandonment, malnutrition, loss of culture, four rounds of intense chemo, heart failure.  She may face these complications, but she is strong, she is a survivor - she will pull through it all.”  Denial on my part, or just a more positive perspective?  I’m not sure, but it’s working for me!

I can honestly say that I am both “shakin’ in my boots” and absolutely excited about seeing what God is going to do through this experience, especially in Katie’s life.  It’s a sad and painful thing to see any child – especially your own - in danger, hurting, being threatened, or just losing out on normal life experiences.  But, there is hope when I look beyond the “event” and think about how this experience will be used for good, for God’s glory.   That is one wonderful benefit that can come out of this whole ordeal.  I am convinced of that.  I can’t change what it is, nor can I control the outcome.  The only thing I can do is keep a positive attitude and trust the Lord for His will to be done. It’s not easy and I’m not always successful, but I keep trying!

Regarding the donor-search:  Even though the search will continue for a 10/10 match, the medical workup on the 9/10 will now begin.  That will take about three weeks to complete.  If the gentleman (for we know the donor is a 50 year old man) agrees to give marrow, the doctors will go with a marrow transplant; if he chooses not to donate marrow, they will use the umbilical cord blood units that are on hold for Katie.  (The doctor does not want to use peripheral stem cells in Katie’s situation.)  Our prayer is that the donor will agree to give marrow, as that seems to be the doctors’ first choice if given the option.  Will you please pray for God’s best, whether it be marrow or cord blood? 

Our stay at the Ronald McDonald House was brief, but so very nice.  It is such a wonderful resource for families in a medical crisis!  I remember putting money in those little boxes that often sat on the counters of McDonald’s restaurants.  (Our McDonald days seem to be over now–not sure if they still use those little boxes to collect money?)  Never in a million years would I have thought that one day we would be staying in one of those houses!   So, if you happen to be in a McDonald’s restaurant, and you happen to have a few spare coins or bills to put in the collection box, go ahead and drop them in - in honor of Katie and so many others who have been blessed by this wonderful charity. And say a prayer for those staying in the RMHs all over the world, and pray that you may never be blessed to stay at one.

While down at Stanford, Katie and I went over to the university twice and walked around the old center quad.  The first time was at night under a full moon.  The weather was beautiful and the moon lit up the entire square.  It was so beautiful, we went back the next day after her GFR test and appointments, and we walked around again, waiting for the rush-hour traffic to die down before we headed back to Sacramento. I’ve attached a few pics at the top of those outings. 

PRAYER REQUESTS RECAP:  For the spots on Katie’s lungs and liver to disappear, for the 9/10 donor to agree to donate marrow, for God’s will regarding the donor or cord blood option, and for Katie not to relapse while waiting for transplant 

In faith,

Sherrie

visit to stanford this Thursday

Katie and I will be heading out to Palo Alto tomorrow afternoon for (hopefully the last) consultation before going inpatient at Lucile Packard Children’s Hospital.  She will be having the GFR test starting at 9:00 AM, then we will be meeting with the cardiologist and transplant doctors, all of which will happen on Thursday.  We are hoping and praying that a date will be set for the transplant at this visit.  Because the GFR test starts so early in the morning, we decided it would be better to go the night before instead of fighting morning rush-hour traffic into the Bay area.  We will be staying at the Ronald McDonald House at night; this will also give me an idea of what some of our “transplant life outside of the hospital” might look like.

I would like to continue encouraging people to sign up to be marrow or stem cell donors.  Too many times a good donor is not found and that just shouldn’t be.   One of the booklets we received from a transplant center states this fact: “It is very unlikely (1 in a million) for two unrelated individuals to have the same HLA genes in common…”  But, that is what a perfect match is: two individuals having the same HLA genes in common.   So, to find a perfect match is not a slam dunk, particularly for minorities or those of mixed heritage.  You may just be that one-in-a-million person!  Click on the “Resources” link at the top of this page and then – TAKE ACTION! 

Speaking of registering to be a donor — REMINDER: if you live in Sacramento county, you can come to Arcade Church this coming Friday night, August 27th,  register to be a donor, and then spend an hour working out to Zumba! Donor registration begins at 6:00PM and Zumba at 7:00PM.  Bring comfortable shoes, a water bottle, your smile, and a friend.  (Katie has gone to a few Zumba classes and she loves it.  She asked me tonight if I was going to Zumba.  I’m sure willing to give it a try – jiggles, wiggles, and all!)

Please pray for our hospital visit on Thursday.  Pray that all goes well with the test and with the doctors’ appointments.  We truly appreciate your prayers for our family.

Sherrie

a great clinic visit

Hi Everyone.  Last week’s clinic visit was very positive!  Katie is officially in remission (triples YEAHS!), her lab counts are mostly in the normal range and improving, and the CT scan  showed the fungal infection completely gone (except for one small possible “hole” which could just be scar tissue, or an encapsulated pocket…unknown).   The scan also showed something on the liver, but it was so minuscule that the oncologist couldn’t see anything ; he wasn’t worried about it at all and felt like the radiologist was probably being hyper-vigilant.  Thank you for your prayers for Katie, and please continue to pray that those little “liver spots” are nothing.  

The appointment at Stanford has been rescheduled for next Thursday.  Katie will have a GFR test (for kidney function), then we will meet with the cardiologist and then the oncologist.  It will be a very long day, but we are hoping to come home with a plan for the transplant.  It has been four months since we learned that Katie has relapsed, so we are ready to move forward with this transplant.  It appears more and more that she will either have a transplant from the 9/10 donor they have found, or have a transplant using double cord blood units. 

So while we will continue to pray for a 10/10 donor, we are daily learning to surrender Katie to God’s will.  What we think of as perfect, a 10/10, may not be what the Lord knows is perfect.  It is not easy to let go of your child and put his/her life into God’s hands…but it is a lesson we must continually practice over and over many times a day.  I am reminded of the verse from Isaiah:

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD.  For as the heavens are higher than the earth,  so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.”  Isaiah 55:8-10

 Just a quick reminder for those of you in the Sacramento area:  The Zumba event is this coming Friday, August 27th, at 7:00 PM, at Arcade church,  along with a donor drive starting at 6:00 PM.  If you would like to sign up to be a donor and have fun “zumba-ing” come on out and join us!  I’m pretty sure Katie will be able to there, too. 

Thanks to everyone for the support you have shown us in so many varied ways.   God bless each of you.

Sherrie

communication: the good, the bad, and the ugly

Katie’s appointment at Stanford has suddenly been moved forward to…hum… probably next week…not sure at this point.   Seems the transplant doctors would like more tests run on her prior to the oncology visit, and also due to scheduling a cardiology test prior to a visit with the cardiologist.  I’m trying to go with the flow on this one as there is no other choice.  But, these last minute changes had me tossing and turning most of last night thinking about “communication” , and how it can either make our lives better or more complex and challenging.  Too much communication, too little communication, miscommunication, overload on communication! Well, enough said about communication – at least in this paragraph!

So, after numerous phone calls (while sitting in a car and standing outside a grocery store with two very hot and tired children), and a visit to the pharmacy to get an item they don’t stock, all in an effort to quickly get more information on the status of Katie’s internal organs, (partly for the appointment we had today which has now been moved ahead to next week), we had to “encourage” Katie to drink a “bunch of banana” contrast for a hurriedly sceduled appointment for a CT last night at 8:30 PM.  Let’s just say that there was some tough love going on at our house last night with Katie since (1) she doesn’t like bananas, and (2) her stomach has shrunk since her hospital visit and it can barely hold a half of milkshake without feeling full.  Hopefully, the CT will show what it needs to show since she barely got down half of what she was suppose to drink.  (Read between the lines: too little, too much, mis- and overload of communication all in one day.)

OK, on a lighter note, our friends, Steve and Susie McNitt, are participating in a Team in Training Marathon (Nike Women’s Marathon, October 17th, in San Francisco) and are raising money for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society.  Their son, Caleb, had AML – the same type of leukemia Katie had/has – relapsed three years post-treatment and went through a bone marrow transplant last year - just like Katie did and will.   (BTW: Caleb  is doing very well now and returning to school this fall…YEAH!)  Both Steve and Susie have been a tremendous support to us during these past four years, and we would like to ask you to support them in their efforts to raise money for the L&LS.  They are running in honor of  their son, Caleb; Katie; and another young man whom they met while staying at Stanford.  Please check out their fundraising pages here and donate if you are able.  Thank you!

http://pages.teamintraining.org/sac/nikesf10/smcnitthkn 

http://pages.teamintraining.org/sac/nikesf10/smcnitt

God bless you!

In faith and with hope, we are continuing to pray for a 10/10 match for Katie.  Will you continue to pray with us? (This is the best kind of “communication”!)

Sherrie

numbers: The ups and downs…

Health Update:    Most parents who have gone through the journey of childhood cancer can tell you that numbers (specifically, lab report numbers) play a big factor in how well everything is going, or not.  It’s hard not to let them affect how you feel.  The last two weeks have been weeks of ups and downs. —  This count needs to be lower.  That count needs to be higher.  Adjustment of meds.   OK.  That’s going down.  Good.  Uh-oh.  That’s going up again.  Adjustment again.  OK.  It’s going down now.  Good. —  But, the great news was that we ended this past week on a very positive “up” note!  An X-ray of Katie’s lungs showed no sign of any fungal infection (though she still needs to have a CT to make sure the infection is totally gone).  This was great news!  Because of this, the doctors felt comfortable in taking her off the anti-fungal medicines which were causing stress on her kidneys (causing high creatinine levels), and causing us to make trips to the clinic three times a week.  The doctors also temporarily took her off of her heart medications, once again, to give the kidneys a break.  Even off of her medications, her heart function only dropped slightly — great news again!  And, those all important blood counts numbers: they continue to show recovery of her marrow, with no obvious signs of relapse.  Whoo-hoo!  Many thanks to those who continue to pray for Katie’s health!  Praise God!  (Katie had a bone marrow biopsy this past Friday; we should know the preliminary results of that test in a few days.)

We have another appointment this coming Wednesday at Stanford.  We will meet with both the oncologist and the cardiologist.  We hope to come away with more specific information about the road ahead.  It appears (at least to me) that something will need to be done soon since we are approaching the end of the optimal time to do “something” - either another round of chemo (not the best option) or set a date for transplant.  Much of this planning phase for transplant has been on hold because of — guess what!?— Katie’s “numbers”!   Now that the “numbers” seem to be headed in the right directions, maybe we can get some resolution here soon.  Please pray that the doctors will be guided by the Lord in recommending the right option for Katie.  We are trusting their knowledge at this point.

Donor Update:  Katie’s best donor continues to be the 9/10 donor.  While we have prayed for a 10/10 donor for Katie – and will continue to do so – it does seem more and more likely that Katie’s best match will be this one 9/10 match.  All we know is that it is a 50 year old male.  Whereabouts unknown.  There are also some cord blood units on hold for her which are very close matches. (The matching is not as critical in cord blood transplants.)   If the doctors decide that a cord blood transplant is the best option, it would be a double cord blood transplant.  It is possible that the 9/10 match could elect to donate marrow; this is often considered better than a stem cell transplant, but that is at the donor’s option.   But all of these decisions rest on many other factors, mainly the overall health of the patient.  Since Katie has a heart problem and now a lung problem, she is considered high risk.  Again, please pray for wisdom for the doctors as they consider all of these factors in making the best decision for Katie.  And continue to pray for that 10/10 match; it’s still not too late!

I was told by the transplant coordinator that 16 different samples for Katie had been received over the past few weeks.  Most of these were probably from those of you who had your adopted children tested.  First of all, I want to tell you how much this step of faith you took meant to me.  It told me you cared enough to take action; action that cost you something – both time, money, and possibly some emotions.  Please know that I would do the same for any other adopted child going through something similar to what Katie is facing.  Unfortunately, not one of those tests showed any potential matches for Katie.  I am very grateful for your act of compassion in having your child tested, yet I am sorry it was all for naught.

Zumba Event:  In my last post, I accidentally typed in the wrong date for the upcoming Zumba charity event.  The correct date is Friday, August 27th – 7:00 PM -  Arcade Church, 3927 Marconi Avenue, Sacramento.  SO:  If you like  Zumba…or are curious about Zumba — come have fun, burn a few calories, and help our family.  Once again, thanks to Tiffany Russo and Allie Northcutt for organizing this event.  In addition to the Zumba event, we will also be holding a donor registration drive at the same place and time.  BloodSource will be there to help sign people to the National Donor Marrow Program.  So, if you haven’t yet registered to be a potential donor, come ready to do that, too! 

HELP!:   It is very humbling to ask for help, but I guess I’m pretty much getting past those issues of pride when it comes to our situation right now.  This road we are walking is a difficult one – no doubt about it.  The positive side of this road is that it is drawing us closer to the Lord.  We must rely on Him to bring us the help we need.  But, it is our responsibility to let our needs be known to our friends and family so that they may respond.  So, here goes:  

For those of you in the Sacramento area who would like to prepare a meal for us:  If you enjoy cooking, please email Melinda Keller at mekeller2@earthlink.net .   There have been many wonderful families who have already prepared meals for us, but it would be nice to let those families have a break for a while.  We will need this assistance until Katie returns home from Stanford (estimated 3-4 month stay in Palo Alto.)  As the saying goes:  “Many hands make light work.”   (Plus, we are not picky eaters; gourmet food is not required;-)

For those of you who want to pray for our family:  Please pray that the doctors will make the right decision about the method of transplant they will recommend for Katie.  Pray that we accept God’s will, whatever that decision turns out to be.  Pray that Michael will have work to carry us through the next four to five months.  And, continue with us in praying for the best match for Katie….we still want a 10/10 match!

For those of you desiring to help us with the financial costs we are incurring, you may donate using Pay-Pal by clicking on the “DONATE” button at the top of this blog. (The PayPal button is not on the Caringbridge site.  It is only at www.katiecramer.org) For those who don’t use PayPal, you may donate to the Katie Cramer Donor Drive Fund at any Bank of America using the following account number  23640-67590.   Michael’s ability to work has been affected by Katie’s illness (he is self-employed with no sick, personal or family leave benefits), and I am not able to work at all (and there is no Family Emergency Leave Benefits for teachers in my district:-(   A great big thank you to those of you who have already generously given to our family; may God richly bless you!

In faith…

Sherrie